JC and her New Freckled Fish

I recently made the trip to Judy's and brought JC her 1st Fish tank. It was so funny because everytime JC came to visit she didn't say much this time she talked non-stop. We got it set-up and then off to the fish store to buy a few items. Mainly FISH! She was so cute she ran over to the big tank of feeder fish saying look Carol look at all the fish. We looked and looked and what did we find....... A fish with freckles and a fish that looks like my fruit loop. She picked which one she wanted. She then picked out a decoration for the tank. It was areio I think that's the name. We also bought gems for the tank. Jc then named then Freckles and Steelers.

My Missing fish & his New Friends

This past weekend I get a text from Judy she is headed back from Boise and can she meet me by the freeway because she has something for me..... To my great surprise it was 2 new gold fish JC picked out. I was so excited because fruit loop would have a new friends. I was in LaGrande with Mick so I got up at 7am to hurry home to get the fish in their new home..... But, to my surprise I get home and fruit loop is missing. I was blown away! I lifted all the plants and decorations no fruit loop. All I could think of is someone broke in and stole him. Then I looked in the filter department and there he was he must have swam up the water fall and died. I have never seen anything like it. Maybe he thought he was a trout. No worries I will be replacing fruit loop so JC does not worry. Her 2 fish are doing well. Happy Happy Happy! Just one last thing I can't remember their names. Judy can u help me? Thank You JC I love the FISH!

Surgery Instructions

Ok so I went to see the other surgeon today and was she all kinds of helpful. She gave me the low down of what is happening and lets just say my body is turning inside out literally. On top of it I have a huge hernia and much more. After she is done explaining she says the following......

1. No driving for up to 3 weeks.
2. No lifting ANYTHING for 6 weeks.
3. No work for 1st week
4. Can work part time if tolerated for 2 weeks after 1st week.
5. I will be in the hospital for 4 days at the very least. I will be in the hospital in Pendleton.
6. The surgery will take 4-6 hours

I about fell off the chair hearing all this. I went on to say Oh MY I can't afford 3 weeks off work.

The Good thing is Mick will be moving in for the month of April to help me through it all. I think it is my turn I say.

No worries I do have my health care wishes spelled out in case anything goes wrong. Mick will be the person to contact if needed any info.

Family Visits, All Moved In, Surgery

I am all moved in and things put away for the most part. This has been good because I have got the chance to go through the tons of junk I own and thrown a bunch away. Maybe one day I will take up scrape booking and make books of pictures for each of my kids. I have thousands of photo's of them.

I really like living so close to work. It is fun to change clothes in the middle of the day and see if someone notices. I think they think they went crazy when I say I haven't.

I will be finally having surgery on March 31. 2 surgeons will be doing it sense I have a lot of problems that need fixed.

I have had a visitor a couple of times here. Judy and her cute girls have come to visit a couple of times. I just love having JC come feed the fish.If I know she is coming I don't feed him for a day that way Fruit Loop will eat. She loves watching him eat. Thanks Judy! Hopefully when your home some weekend I can come visit. I have a fish tank for JC for her birthday.

Can everyone send me their kids birthdates?

New Place, New Town, Jeff

I am all moved to my new place and it has been exhausting. I moved to Pendleton where I am closer to my job.When I say close I live in a Triplex across the parking lot from my job. When I am on my front porch I see my office. Why so close? It was the cleanest place in town and big enough for all my stuff. I rented the whole downstairs floor and their is 2 apartments above me. The nice thing is I am steps away from the green belt. I am excited because I will walk it every night.

Great News now people can come visit, it's NON-SMOKING INSIDE!

This town is all about the Round Up in September. I hope you can come to the 100yr celebration. I am still confused on where things are at but give me time I will find them. I know how to get to the grocery store and back. That is GOOD!

Jeffery is moved to his friends, the Cox's. It's weird because I thought this will be so nice to be all alone and I found I miss my son a lot. I will see him on weekends when I go see Mick.

Jeff is doing well after being so sick! He is set to graduate in May.

Prayer, Sickness, Being an Adult & Listening to Mom

Last Wednesday Jeffery came down with the common cold. He has never missed a day of school for being sick in 3 years and he misses school on Thursday. Friday Morning he gets up and says I do not feel well and I have missed 2 days of school. I asked him if he would like to go to the Dr and he declined. He says no I will get feeling better. I got off work early and came home and said I will take you to the Dr he said no Mom I am feeling better, he really wasn't. Saturday he woke up with his ear in pain and no energy and blisters around his mouth. I said Jeff you have been running such a high fever you have fever blisters on your mouth. All along he has been taking cold medication. He says is that why I am sweating at times. I begged him to go to the ER and have them look at him. He refused as he coughed up a lung. Sunday morning came and I knew it had to be worse because he was not moving off the couch. He still refused to go to the ER. SO my last chance attempt was I said if I stay home from work will you go to the Dr in the morning and he said yes.

So this morning we go to the Dr to find out he has Step Throat, Ear Infection, Pneumonia & sinus infection. He had a temp of 104 with Tylenol take a hour before. Jeff is very sick the Dr says. He asks why has he not got in here. I said he is being an adult and is making choices and I am just the mom who knows nothing at this age. The DR looked at Jeff and said you could have died from all this and your mom has been with you for almost 19 years and knows a thing or 2. You should listen to her. After all that he gives Jeff a prescription for 1000mg of Amoxacillin 3x a day for 10 days and then if he is not better in 5 days he will take another med with this one.

I think this open Jeffs eyes because he asked for a blessing. He knew he was very sick from there. Jeff will not return to school for another week. He has a ways to go.

Good News for Jeff he made Honor Roll with a 3.75 Grade Average!

As for me I am moving come Saturday in the mist of all this. SO it's been stressful for all of us. I am packing as Jeffery is resting. I wish I could put the move off but everything has been arranged for me to be out of here by Monday.

What makes a Family?

This may or may not make you mad or sad or happy but what ever it is this is my take on Family!



As you all know for the past 2 months I have been down in Boise 1-2 times a week taking care of Mick and stay at Dad and Darlene's house. In this 2 months I was almost thinking I was learning who they were again......... That was until I read the blog site of Christmastime from Dad. He went on to explain how he spent Christmas and how Janet and her family stopped in. Not one mention I was around of course. Or how about the gift my 4 other siblings bought and if I was apart of it my name was left out. Then lets think of the best 16yrs of his life he has had. How his guilt of all his angry years have made him feel guilty or how he found god again.



So to give my 2 sense about it I spent my Christmas at his house and with Mick. I had Christmas Dinner with them and her family even. I never even opened 1 gift on Christmas. I didn't get any! I did get a gift card from Robbie and family but not until the 30th of December. I guess I need to say Thank You!



Now for the best 16yrs of his life with no guilt and finding god. Let me tell you it has been a great 21 years of my life...... Ya the nightmares of my child hood has never been forgotten and gosh let me think it's been 28 years this year sense the Christmas time nightmare happen when I was hospitalized. Don't get me wrong I am not living in the past for I have put a lot of it away but just staying at his house brought up all the memories of my childhood. I had nightmares and thoughts I never want to come back. I felt like I was in some kind of recovery and dealing with it all until I read the blog site.



SO let me say more........ I have 4 siblings and when people ask I say I don't know any of them. It's funny how you all have drove through La Grande either to visit Judy or Judy go visit you and not one of you could stop and say hello. Do I have the plaque? Ya you stopped once and that lasted 30 minutes to a hour at the most. It really blows me away how close you all are and how you act as if I am someone who lives in a shack with rats running around.



So to let you all know I am struggling after quiting my job. My great paying job! Yes that is my choice of doing and yes I now have a great paying job again and trying to catch up. Not only that Mick ended up in the hospital which cost a lot of money to go to Boise to take care of him. I am behind on rent yes and yes I do what I can. Something I don't do is go on vacation, or buy new clothes, I watch every dime I have. I got a job in Pendelton because I thought Mother was moving there so I got a job so I could be closer but she choose to stay in Texas because MONEY must make her more happy. I think I was told it was because a 10, 000 a year pay cut. Now I travel 50 miles a day one way to work and hope to move over the hill in May. I can say I am happy I changed jobs because the one I was in was not very positive. I LOVE MY JOB! I may just have enough money to drive back and fourth to work but at the end of the day I have a wonderful man who I love (Mick) and I have a job I enjoy having!



My story on talking to the Bishop recently, I sat down with him in his plain clothes at the church and needing some help and guidance. This is what he said: First of all you need to stop having sex with all your boyfriends. All my boyfriends I asked, he said yes you should not without being married. I informed him I don't have a bunch of boyfriends and Mick is it and to tell you the truth I have never done that with him and won't be. He then went on to say he has spoke to all of you and he knows everything about me. Interesting. Then he said I need to pray and that I haven't. OMG are you serous because I do sometimes 10x a day. He then invited me to church and told me what times. Before I left he reminded me to not stop having sex and to get rid of the boyfriends. I can say after that I had never wanted to go back to the church again. I was blown away but also upset and angry over his choice of words. I figured out that he didn't know me and making assumptions that he just assumed. Funny thing is he never told me not to drink again. I guess if he knew me he would know that about me.



SO what makes a family? Is it doing what God has asked you to do and follow it? Is it doing what you want and hopefully you can repent some day. Is it the way we treat each other by excluding one from the family because you can for some reason? Is it how well we raise our kids and who has the better set? Is it what job we have in life and what job our spouse has? Let me tell you when I get up in the morning I thank God I am still alive! I do not look at people with degrees or having good children better then me. I do not look at I am any better then anyone I come in contact with. I know what it is like to loose the love of my life and life is way to short to miss out on the good in people because I was too busy judging others for their faults!



I make the choices I have made because I know I have to answer to them someday........ Yes choose to quit my job, I also choose to take care of Mick in the hospital with not asking for anything in return. I choose to stay at Dads but I was really hoping that it would have built a relationship with him and Darlene. I choose all the paths I took, but never did without praying first about it and asking he help guild me.

I know this has been long but I want to explain something what family is to people I know. Recently on Dec 31, 2009 a couple lost their baby 2 hours after it was born. They knew this was going to happen and in the end they came to me to make some very important decisions because they feel as if I am their Mom because their family lives in another country. They use to work for me at my old job and after I left I still have 30 of the best kids that all call me mom. It's because I do not judge them or treat them different for their choices.

I don't apologize for what I said for I think you should all really ask yourself if you are following what God has asked you to do........... If you all say yes then ask yourself again and pray about it!
You don't have to go to church to have God in your life...........



As for Mick he is doing great at home. He has a long recovery! After all that has happen he is now going blind and counts on me from day to day to help him with everyday things we all take for granted. He came home Dec 31, 09. 2 days short of 2 months in the hospital!

Thanks Darlene for the sweater Janet gave it to me when she picked up Dylan on the 1st.

Thanks Janet for bringing me Dylan and taking him home. George and I appreciate it greatly.

Thanks Judy for helping me buy a car in November. I will pay you back.....