Holidays, Kids & The Grinch

Ok SO I have my share of fun at work playing the Grinch who stole Christmas. It started out by telling the clients I canceled Christmas and were all going to work right through it. They all laughed and said I couldn't cancel Christmas. SO a couple days went by when last Friday I went and took the 25th off the big calender on the wall and you should have seen the look on their face. You would have thought someone died on the spot. One client said "Oh come'on Santa is coming. So the staff in the room got together with the clients and posted a note on my back that said the Grinch that stole Christmas. I acted like I didn't know it was their and every time I walked in the room they just laughed. On Monday was the Christmas Party for them and I just had to play it up. Santa came in and I said who let him in here. It was so funny they thought they fooled me. I just love my new job it is so much fun to see how much they grow with you. Needless to say as they have left for home this year for the Holidays they all have come to tell me they won't be here to work on the 25th and I act as if I am going to be all alone on Christmas working.

For Christmas I will be going to Boise to spend it with Mick. He is still in the hospital but doing so much better. He still has a couple of weeks to go but who knows. The hospital has dragged things on with getting his Trech looked at. He can do most everything for himself and all his test look great. The only hold up is is trech.

Jeffery and I will do his Christmas on Christmas Eve. He has opt to stay home his best friend Chris is coming home from the military. Jeff can't wait to see him.

THANKS Janet for bringing Dylan home for the holidays. I owe u so much. I think it would be good to have him down for the week.

I hope to make it over to see Judy and her family soon but well see what happens.

If I had one wish for CHRISTMAS it would be that us as sibling could become closer..........

Oh one last note THANKS Dad & Darlene for all your kindness!!!!!!

Great News!

Mick Update: Mick was moved to Meridian to a Acute Care hospital in Meridian Idaho and is doing well. This is a place where you go when you have alot of things going on and need Therapy to. Yesterday was an interesting day he had texted me he needs to see his Dr that is there and if I could help. Being I am back home I called and they said she was in the building still. So I arranged she paid him a visit. He wanted to take his Mestinion again which he took for his MG which is in remission. He thought if he took that again he would feel better. She suggested he didn't need it. So funny thing is he had his speaking valve in and called me on the phone and asked me. I told him his body has been through so much trauma it is now reacting to his therapy of moving around more and is in the defense of wanting it to relax. I told him to wait a couple of months before he took the med again to see if he really needed it. I think he thought it was going to be his quick fix to get out of the Hospital. I'll tell you the highlight of it all is him calling and using his speaking valve. There is nothing like hearing someone say "I Love You" when they can't speak most of the time.

Janet you asked if he will be home by Christmas? I hope so I am hoping to bring him home the 23rd or 24th. It just depends on how well he is doing. He has a ways to go and when he does get home I will stay with him for the first week at his place. My place is way 2 cold for him. He likes it at 100 degrees and I like my place maybe 70. Plus I have 2 many steps for him to go up.


I have your Gift Janet to send I need your address. As fro Christmas unsure and it's up in the air right now. Dylan wants to stay home with his dad this year. Jeff unsure what he has plans for. I did decorate for it all will try and post pic's.

Mick Update Great News

I know that it has been a while sense I have got to write so tonight I got the best news I could from the hospital. Mick is off the ventilator now. Let me go back a few weeks tho....
Mick did have a trach put in after thanksgiving and it all went well for him. He also had his feeding tube moved to his stomach. A day after he received the Trach I went to Boise where I had to deal with a very angry person who didn't quit understand what was happening or why was he still in the hospital. He couldn't understand why he could not leave with me at night and why I could not stay with him. After a couple of days of fighting him and getting him to understand I had to lay down the law of I was not going to be abused by his angry attitude. I told him I would go home if it continued. By the 3rd day he was sound asleep all day so I went home and that night he woke fighting when a Nurse came in and told him that he can fight them or follow the rules to get out. Mick calmed down and has sense been calm enough to follow the instructions to get off the ventilator. I am now hoping to move him to Walla Walla for rehab. I will go down again Tuesday to be with him and work with the hospital to get him moved. Im so excited about it I can hardly wait to get to Boise now. Mick is off all mind altering meds and the best part of this his MG in remission. As I tell him this is what you wanted.

Ill keep you all posted

I'm Very THANKFUL

When I think of what I have to be thankful for I think of a bunch of things...........

1. I'm thankful for my son Jeffery that he is a good kid who is not on drugs and drinking and most of all a SMOKER!
2. I'm Thankful for my son Dylan Pots who always remembers to say I Love You before he gets off the phone with me!
3. I'm Thankful for my daughter Samantha and giving another family the gift of a child.
4. I'm Thankful for having Mick in my life and even tho it has been hard with him in the hospital it just draws me closer.
5. I'm Thankful for Dad and Darlene for opening up their home and letting me stay there during this difficult time.
6. I'm Thankful for my Job that has been so understanding while I take time to go to Boise.
7. I'm Thankful for having such a good siblings that always have the right words on my blog when I am having a bad day.
8. I'm Thankful for my Mother who calls me and listens when I need to just talk.
9. I'm Thankful I'm alive and loosing 25 pounds and keeping it off.
10. MOST OF ALL I AM THANKFUL FOR HAVING A GOD I CAN PRAY TO WHEN EVER I NEED TO AND I KNOW HE IS LISTENING TO ME!

I will not be having the traditional Thanksgiving Dinner this year but spending the day with Mick in the hospital. A bunch of friends have decided to put there dinner on hold until Mick comes home and then get together and have Thanks Giving Dinner together. I did think about going to the Mission in Boise and seeing if I could help serve the meal for a couple of hours or help clean up.

As for Mick he will be having surgery on Friday. He is still in ICU for now and has still on the ventilator. He has a couple of weeks in the hospital to go. He is very weak but making progress. I have been working with him with moving his legs and sitting up in bed. It has been paying off. He has been getting dialysis for a medication overdose. Other then that I can't wait to bring him home.....

Mick Update

Set back today and feel just so let down. Mick was scheduled for surgery tomorrow (WED) and I had planned to come to Boise, but I get a phone call saying he has pneumonia and cant have surgery and they will re-evaluate it in 3 days again. The Dr's don't think he would benefit from a trech now and I argue that living on a ventilator is not what he wants. I got a little upset today with the whole thing for I looked forward to this being done but I guess I need to pray and have patience. It will all work out I know it will!

Recently I got a call from the social worker for a medical guardian for him and he only has a brother. His brother said he would like me and him to make any decisions for Mick together. That is a change for me. His brother has been so supportive to me.

So Dad and Darlene I will be down on Friday night and will stay for 5 days or more. Don't change the sheets or clean the towels I will be back. Thanks for all your support and having someone to talk to at the end of the day while I am there.

I wonder if God is giving me extra time to relax and rest for I will need it later. I have been so tired lately.

Does God Give US Only What We Can Handle?

I ask more and more each day if God really gives us only what we can handle? I also wonder why I was blessed with not only going through such trials as having not only one boyfriend but 2 who has been hospitalized with serous health issues. Leaving me to be by their side and I am not talking a brief stay in the hospital I am talking where you spend hour after hour watching them on a ventilator and as they struggle to understand why. Where I am reassuring them that they will survive this. That this will pass and if were lucky we will have 1 more year together.

So to update you with my last blog. Mick broke his neck in 2 places and cut his ligament in his neck. The Dr says he is just so lucky to walk. Well he had surgery on Saturday and after surgery he did not do so well coming off the ventilator. They had to put it back in and put him in ICU to watch him more close. ON Sunday he got off the ventilator and was doing well and sitting in his chair and was being moved to the floor for recovery. Once there I went home for a couple of days and in the night he pulled his feeding tube out which gave him his medication he needs for his disease. He also had damage done to his throat so he could not swallow anything without it going in his lungs. So Monday he refused to have the tube put back in because he was waiting for me to show up in Boise. After missing 3 doses of his medication he had went code blue which at this time he was brought back but put back on the ventilator. That night I got to Boise and the next morning he was taken off the ventilator when he choked on something and went code blue again and was back on the ventilator. SO the Dr said he wants to put a trech in his throat and he was scheduled for surgery Yesterday at 5pm when the Dr came in at 3pm and said there was no way due to the neck injury and the increase of infection. SO we were told next Wed or Thur he will have surgery to have this done but will have to stay on the ventilator until then. I came home to work for a couple of days and will be back this weekend. This has taken such a big toll on us.

Then I ask where is all my family or friends when I am feeling all alone at night and just need someone to cry to because I am so overwhelmed and just want to hear it's ok to feel the way I do. Tonight I tried calling 3 family members and 3 friends not one person answered the phone. Are we just so wrapped up in our own lives we don't have time to hear whats happening? Or just lend some support? Tonight I am home away from Mick and all I wanted to do is just reach out to talk and let out my frustration and talk to someone sense he can't talk.

I do have to send a special THANK YOU to Dad and Darlene for lending me their spare room while I stay in Boise. I know I don't visit much but I am so stressed with everything when I am there. Thanks for turning on the heat before I get back in at night and feeding me, I appreciate everything you have done to help.

Prayers Needed for Mick Alam

Hello Everyone,

Everyone please pray for Mick! Let me explain first. About a week and a half ago I was up at his cabin it was the first day of ELk season and it had snowed and a bunch of us were at another Elk Camp when we got home he had fell off his step. Well he complained of his neck hurting and as time went on it just got worse for him. He thought just maybe this will go away by taking pain medication. Well it didn't and finally went to the DR and he set him up with a MRI and XRAYS. Yesterday he went and the DR called saying we need to send a ambulance to your cabin. The Dr wanted to fly him to Boise for he had very serous neck injuries and one false move he will be a quadriplegic. If you know Mick that is not ok with him, one being in a ambulance and 2 in any wheel chair. SO he has agreed to come down this morning with his hunting partner to this hospital and he will have his neck stabilized and then I will take him to Walla Walla hospital where they will decide what to do. He needs your prayers! Mick has a disease called Mystathenia Gravis. Plus he has Muscular Dystrophy. Being he has this it is hard for him to have surgery due to ansthiea. He choose Walla Walla because his Neurologist is there and has treated him for years there.

I know now God gives us what we can handle and even if he was in a chair I would take care of him NO PROBLEM! I just need your prayers for a good recovery with him. I will keep you all updated.

Thanks Every One For Your Help!

Remembering Richard 3yrs Today Nov 4, 2009

Some of you may or may not know I lost the love of my life 3 years ago today. So today I am dedicating it to him and remembering that someday I will be with him.

Dear Richard,
I Love You! I Love You as much or more as the day you passed away. 3years ago I lost you to death. In the past 3 years you have come back to be with me to comfort me in so many ways. I know heavenly father has granted you being my guardian angel. Your there on my good days and my bad. You never let me down! You have guided me as I have taken so many roads and every time I really need you it seems you are there holding my hand.

Today I has been very hard on me! Unlike last year I did really well. Today I feel I am mourning you gone and just wish you were here to say it will be ok that your in a much better place. Ive cried a lot today and just wish I could hug you one more time. I know in my heart you are and that you are with our heavenly father. I pray to him every day and I know he has been there for me. I just pray he lets you come back and be with me until it's my time to go.

So take this ride with me today as I go to the summit to see if there is snow up there. The sun is shinning and it's a perfect day for the both of us. I miss you Richard and what I would give to have just one more moment in time......

Love You Always,
Dear

New Job and 1st Diet Coke but wait and read....

Ok lets just get to me having my first caffeine drink. I was sitting at home last night on Halloween and handing out candy and eating pizza and wanted a pop so bad so I decided to open a diet coke in the fridge. It was so bad tasting it was like drinking banking soda. The flavor was not like what I remembered. I only took 2 sips when I dumped it out. I went to having a glass of water for the night. I heard that once you stop drinking it for a long period of time then you loose the taste of it. Won't be doing that again.

Alright on a Great Note: I got a new job out of town. I went for my interview on a Thursday and they called me on Monday to offer me a position. Great health benefits and good pay. I have to drive 50 miles to Pendelton but I think it will be great. My first day was Friday and it was a little over-whelming. Oh whats the job? I will run the Vocational Department for this company. I have not a whole lot of experience in this part of the DD field. I looked at it as if God said you need this education and when you accomplish it you will have both Voc and Residential under your belt. I have a big office and 8 staff and 40 clients. It will be a challenge for me. My supervisor has only been there a month and knows nothing about Vocational so I will be learning it and teaching her. I need this challenge.

Christmas Music? When I sat down to write this blog I turned on the soft music on satellite and it is playing Christmas music. I just got done with Halloween now this. No worries I love Christmas music.

Halloween and Driving Drunk: As for Halloween I just love handing candy out to kids so opt out to stay home and do it this year at my home instead of going to the many parties I was invited to. I did send out a text to all my ex-staff and friends not to drink and drive that if they need a ride to call me and I will take them where ever they need to go. At 2:30 in the morning I got 3 phone calls and up out of bed I went to go take them home. I look at it as I must have saved someones life with them not getting behind the wheel of the car and driving drunk. They just were so thankful for the ride, I was just thankful I could be a help to them.

Well I hope all is well with your families and just love reading your blogs keep them commin!

25lbs Lost and Whatever Else

Diet: I am so excited I have lost a total of 25lbs. I am so darn excited and feel so good all over. I do have to say I have had a huge craving for a pop lately and so last night I rewarded myself with buying a Pizza and Root beer no caffeine pop. I could have ordered a 2 liter when I ordered the pizza but decided to go to the gas station and buy a cup for that way I would not be tempted to drink the whole thing. I want to say I choose Root beer because it has no caffeine and I will never forget what it was like going through the withdraws of caffeine. That was horable.

Job Search: Lets see I went to a interview in Pendlelton and it went really well. I can only hope to get a job there and possibly move there. It would be closer to where Mom is moving to which at this point I need her.

Christmas Exchange: I guess I have Janet's family name and I'm excited. Funny thing is Janet your wreath that you gave me last year is still hanging on the front of the house. When I finally figured it was still hanging there It was half way through the year and so why take it down. I have Halloween web still tangled in the trees.

I guess Robert has my family and if you need a hint we would love pictures of your family! That goes for everyone I want pictures of all your families for my frames I have! I would like to fill up each frame. Each frame has 6 slots and so I have 5 of them so if each of you could send me 6 family pic's I would love it. It can be any pic of your kids or you or anything you have taken.

Mick: My relationship with Mick is going well. He is preparing to move down off the mountain after 17 years of living there year round. He rented himself a nice apartment on the top floor so when we go out on the deck it is scary for both of us considering were scarred of heights. Mick is also having a rough time with it all because he is not a people person and only comes down to town about every 5 days. He has stayed up there for years and if he was lucky someone would come by on snowmobile every 10 days. He did manage to go to the snow park by snowmobile every 2 weeks for food. That's if the person bringing the food could get to the snow park. He is so use to being alone I will just wonder how this will play out for him. Someone asked me the other day why don't I take the winter off and stay with him up on the mountain and I said because I would go nuts not having anyone to talk to but him. By the 2nd week I would have had to build my self a village of snowmen and go out and talk to them daily and they said well it would not be hard to move them for you could just roll them from place to place. For you that don't know he can not stay up there this winter because his health won't allow it. He can not maneuver his snow mobile anymore and has got sick to the point that there is no way emergency medical could get to him. Well see what happens this winter! The picture above is up at the Mick's cabin!

One Last Thing: Baseball does any of you ever watch Baseball? Well I never watched it till now. Mick is a huge fan of it and does not miss listening to it on the radio or TV. So one night I decided to watch a whole game with him and to my surprise I got into it so much I went home and the next day watched a game that was 5 hours long which is unusual. I am rooting for the Angels to go to the World Series. Mick taught me a lot about the game and was so patient with me with my 110 questions. I guess sometimes just taking up one of his greatest loves proved that Ya maybe he will keep me around another month or so.

Feel Like Someone was Watching Over Me Today!

Today I was getting ready to go out and job hunt when my TV power went out. I was boggled by this but not surprised because our power trips often in the house. So I went down stairs to the breaker box and tripped the breaker and could hear the TV come back on by the time I made it up stairs it was off again. SO I go back down and do this again to go up and be out again and seeing flames coming up my wall from the outlet. It was fully engulfed with flames. I moved quickly to try and put it out with a towel and it just kept relighting. I ran into the kitchen wondering what I could do and I tried the towel again and it went out. Something told me not to put water on it. Which was my first thought. Afterwards I called the Landlord and they came over. It was a electrical fire. I had plugged in a power strip which had 10 things plugged into it. The 3 prong plug I attached to the power strip was melted completely.

I can say someone was watching over me because the first time the power tripped I was saying I can fix it when I get back. For some reason I went and fixed it. Then it did it again because something was telling me to stay if I would have left my house would have burnt to the ground.

The fire Department did come to check for hot spots in the wall and they asked if I had been smelling rubber burn and I said yes for the past couple of days. He said anytime I can smell that to call and they will come check it all out for that is the start of a electrical fire coming.

Thank You to who ever was watching over me today!

Please Pray For Me

Well so much can happen in a week. I was let go of my job of 4 1/2 years Monday and have been very down sense. I have applied at a couple of places and at times wonder if I will work again. I had a interview at the prison but unsure if it went well. I am waiting to hear if I get a second interview. I will travel to Pendleton Monday to apply for a job. Then I will be applying locally. I am worried that I won't be able to pay the rent next month and make my other bills.

Please pray I find a job soon!

1st Snow for the Year

Ok so I was to stop smoking the 1st of October but with all that has been happening in my life I just could not take on that too. Trust me I will get it done by December 1. I will be taking the drug Chantex and it is a 12 week program where you smoke the first week then stop. The side effects is so bad that I have been depressed and it says it will make you more including Suicidal. That's the last thing I need is to get more down then I am.

I am excited to report I have lost 18 pounds and feel good all over. Still no POP!

I am in transition of quiting my job my last day will be 23rd of October.

This picture is a photo of the first snow fall of the year. This is where I go when I want to see and talk to Richard. It was so exciting to see the snow fall, you don't even know the feeling.

I do have a funny story about driving up to this place yesterday. I get up there and it is a snow park and usually no-one is there. But today there is a camp for hunting there and I drive up to the bathrooms and this guy comes out with his shot gun and stands by his tent just watching me. I use the bathroom and when I come out he is still standing there like what, I am here to steal his deer he shot and what I am going to haul it home on my car. SO then I drove over to the spot I leave flowers and he is still standing guarding his camp with his gun. I just kinda had to laugh because I am alone and a woman. I was going to go over and say hi but afraid he would shoot me. I hurried and took pictures and left.

On a better note, I could not be more excited to have MOM and Lynn move closer to me. I need them more then ever here. It just goes to show GOD does answer my prayers. I have been going through a rough time right now and some days I feel so alone.

Lost 15 Pounds/ Still NO Soda Pop

I'm so excited I have lost 15 pounds in 6 weeks. I've done it all with watching my diet and drinking no POP and walking 30 minutes a day. So I made it to what the Dr has asked me to do and I will continue to move on.... I set the goal to have this done by Nov 1 but gosh I have another 6 weeks to go before surgery date. I had really hoped to loose 20 pounds by that date but at this rate I will get it done no problem. I feel so much more healthier. I sometimes feel like to can see and feel the weight loss but I often say in my brain is leaking.

You know I have been feeling quite down lately. I have thought of maybe relocating. I have thought about a lot of things. I will be honest and don't want any of you to look at this as wrong but there has been times I thought I could leave this world. When I do I out way the good and bad and how I enjoy living this life. so much. I think of my kids and how much they still need me. I think it is the whole thought of leaving the job I have had for so long. It scares me!

Well I will keep you all posted!!!!!

Moving Furnature & Food Hoarding

This Picture is from the 4th of July FIREWORKS!

Does any of you move furniture around as much as I do? Well once again I decided to move my room into the bedroom out of the down stairs great room. The bedroom was my computer room. I have done this at least 5 times now and wonder if it's because I can't really move the living room around do to owning a sectional and it is awkward. I'm just happy no one is blind at my home they would never know where to sit.

I decided Jeff has inherited my food hoarding problem. The other day I got up and there set a case of 8 biog bags of chips. You know the ones that have 32 bags of small chips in it. I asked Jeff where they came from and he said I volunteered at the Celebrate La Grande and that was left over so I took it home. I said have you not heard of the food bank? This is not the first time he has hauled all the left overs home from places. He does it all the time. He also came home with a case of Mexican orange soda. IT makes me crazy. So now I have the issue of empty pop bottles and chip wrappers left everywhere. I finally had to pick it all up and give them away to people I know who needs it.

Well it was a great weekend with Mick! I hope everyone had a good weekend too!

Remembering 9/11 8 Years Later

Do you remember where you were when you got the news the planes hit the Twin Towers? I do I remember it all to well. I was listening to the radio when they were saying turn on the TV and about 4 minutes later the next plane hit. I can remember crying for all the victims and all the heart ache of it all. I was glued to the TV for weeks watching everything there was about this tragic even in America.

Even though I didn't personally know someone who was killed or hurt it has touched me all these years that life is so precious and you should never take things for granted. You should always stop and say I Love You because tomorrow may not come.

SO when your in a hurry it takes 2 seconds to tell you spouse and kids and family I Love You!!!! Most of the 3000 people never got to say those words one more time!

One more thing be thankful for living in a free America!

Great Holiday Weekend & 10lbs Lost

It was a great weekend once again. Friday I got to spend time helping Mick move into his new place. He will not officially move in till the middle of November. That's great because I love going to the cabin to relax. Then Saturday we went to Sumpter days which is like one big yard sale through a town in the mountains. Imagine going to Idaho City and finding a big flee market going on. They do it 3 times a year. Mick and I didn't stay long he just was not feeling well and can not walk a long distance. Then that afternoon we spent it just hanging out. Sunday I spent at home relaxing and just enjoying the house to my self. The Monday I went to the cabin and Mick and I went for a drive for 4 hours through the mountains. It was so great to know there is so much untouched land still where the trees grow and it's not logged.

As for my diet I made it to a 10lb weight loss and I could not be happier. Do I notice a big change no. I say I think my brains leaked a little. Still no caffeine or pop. I try and walk every day but if Mick is in town I don't get to. Need to learn to do it and leave him home. I am still eating good. Lately I have had the craving to eat at Mc Donald's and will actually drive towards the place to turn around and go home and make something healthy. It is like when I stopped drinking pop I had to learn to drink Milk instead.SO when I get the craving I eat a veggie or fruit.

Another big thing in my life is I'm looking to make a big career change. I am thinking about going to work at a prison as a drug and alcholl counselor. They will put me through all the training and schooling and the pay is about the same but a little less. I went and applied today. I get scared and nervous when I think about it. It's not that I don't like my job I have been there for 4 and half years and the staff are like having 35 kids. I have prayed a lot about this and will continue to. If I do I plan to go back to college and get my masters in this degree. I look at it as I am 39 and have a good 25-30 years still of working. I will keep you all informed.

Jeff is doing great with really buckling down on doing homework. Tonight we had another heart to heart about paying bills and responsibility. He hates the talk but he needs to learn how to do it.

To all my family yes I do read your blogs daily or when updated. Judy I just don't see yours I am blocked. I love reading about everyone lives. Janet you inspire me with all your different things you learn from church. Thank You!

Ever Had One Of Those Days?

I'm telling you it must just be me or I have just had a long day..........

1. It started out with waking to someone texting me at 6am which wakes me and can't fall back to sleep.
2. Then I go to leave for work and I have 2 very flat tires. Probably some kids thinking their funny.
3. I had to pay $300.00 for new ones because of the type of the car you can't just replace a couple.
4. I get to work and remember I left all my work keys in my car at home. Then after going to get the keys
5. I loose some very important papers I need for a meeting. Still never found them,
6. Then after all that I get home and I end up spilling stuff on my bed and have to wash all 4 layers of blankets.
7. Then My day ends with forgetting to shut off the sink water because I was busy talking to Jeff about his day and I literaly flooded the upstairs and it poured to the down stairs. Jeff said this is a great way to get the floors mopped.
   
   Now on a good note I tried to get a picture of Jeff on his first day of school for everyone to see but he was not having any of it. He was so excited to go! I can't believe it he is finally a senior.
   
   I got a message from Samantha she is having surgery Friday she has a Tumor on her uterus. She would all like us to pray for her. I know I will!
   
   Plans for the weekend- Relax and help Mick move into his new apt he got for the winter.

Diet Update:

It's going great lost 9 pounds and still no pop. Don't crave the Pepsi anymore it's just been a great life changing experience. I am excited to quit smoking in a month. I still eat good and stick to my routine daily! It has been 20 days and I am going strong. I still walk 3 miles everyday.

I do want to share with you my experience with looking on the Internet about diets. Now that is scary everyone has a theory and wants you to do something different. I think I will just keep doing what I am doing!

Jeff is a Senior in High School/Summer/POP/Diet

So the other day I went to go register Jeff for school he made it to his 12th year! I just looked at the lady and said lucky him he is still alive! She said I know what you mean most parents say that to us. I am so excited for him. He has been very busy he has a girlfriend who is in the 11th grade. She comes from a very good Mormon family and they just love him to death. I think he will do great this year sense his one friend is off to the Military and his other friend is leaving on his Mission in November so he can concentrate on seeing the end of this.

Visit From Sisters & la-la-
As of other news it was so nice to have Janet and Judy come visit. I am so glad they got to see where I lived and worked. I am proud of myself and my accomplishment's and hope they see me in a different lite now, that maybe I am not such a bad person after all. I just loved getting to meet La La finally! Judy I still think she might have left La La with me for a day then you would have had to come back for him. Your kids are very beautiful children! Janet your kids are so down to earth you have done well. If any of you have time stop in I would love to see you!

As for my Pop & Caffeine intake here it goes. Ok so this has been a hard road to tread this past 2 weeks but I made it! I have lost 6 pounds. Don't think for a minute I don't crave pop. It is so funny last nite my girlfriend was over and we decided to make cookies and I had one just the taste brought back the taste of that Pepsi with chocolate. I had a glass of water instead. I found that if I am really craving Pepsi I drink a glass of 1% milk. It helps for some reason.

The next 2 weeks I am going to work on walking my 2-4 miles at least 5 days a week. Who knows maybe I will 7 days a week. Today is not a good day for me start it for I look at Sunday my lazy day. I will come Monday it is like work to me.

I can't wait for my surgery for the problems I am having will make me feel so much better about me.

Diet:
I just want to share a few diet things I do that helps: Eat Breakfast! Eat a small lunch like I eat cottage cheese & tomato's with 16oz of V-8 juice. Dinner indulge yourself with real foods. Don't be afraid to have a Mc D's Cheeseburger. Drink lots of water and have at least 2 glasses of 1% of milk a day. KEEP A DIARY Be Honest of what you had! OVer all watch your stomach getting smaller and making it hard for you to eat as much as you use to!

My next big thing is QUITING SMOKING Oct 1! I'm going cold turkey like I did pop!

Caffeine & Soda Pop Free

Hello Everyone,
I have been busy this summer but will tell you more about later!

But wait there is big news for me........ I have made it 5 days with no caffeine or pop for 5 days and it has been hard. I have also lost 4 pounds which I need to loose a total of 15 for surgery Nov 2, 2009. I do want to share this experience of no Pepsi or diet coke with all of you if you ever think of doing it.

As most people know I drank more then a 12 pack of pop a day. Then I went to the Dr and he says I need some major surgery but before he can do it I have to do a few things.

1. Stop drinking anything with caffeine
2. loose 15 pounds
3. Go on a strict diet of eating better
4. Cut back or quit smoking

These are all things that have caused me to now have surgery for my issues at such a young age, He said usually the woman is 59 not 39 when he does this. So I took him serous and I changed my life style. One other thing he said walking every night is not going to help me loose the weight.

So here is my journey:

1. Day 1 I had migraines like no other migraine. I could not bear the pain I had to sleep and hope for the best. The migraine came on about 4pm. Drank tons of water!
2. Day 2 Migraine was back about 4pm and started to 2 sweat bullets. I wanted to drink a pop so bad. I drank a glass of milk which I NEVER do. I became very tired and went to sleep until 8pm and then got up and started the migraine and sweating all over again. I drank tons of water today.
3. Day 3 I was so tired at work I thought. I had no energy then by the time I got home the mother of all migraines came and so did the throwing up and sweating and I knew then I was doomed and just decided to cry it out saying if this is what detox is like then I never want to do this again. MY friend Mick was there to help and said how can I help I said I just need a Pepsi. He had a coke there and said would a little sip help? I said that's like asking a alcholic if they just want a shot of whiskey. NO I do not need nothing I will be OK. Drank tons of water and some milk
4. Day 4 I took migraine medicine at 3pm and didn't wait for the migraine to come. It was great. Drank a couple glasses of milk
5. Day 5 No migraine today. More energy, but feel depressed. Took a long drive and wanted the Pepsi but had my water. I seem to crave the pop at night more then any other time of the day. Maybe because I am not busy.

Hopefully I am on the downside of the detox of it all. I watch everything I eat and make sure no caffeine is in anything, I stay away from chocolate because I know it has some. I eat breakfast every morning ( special K cereal measured out and a fat free yogurt. High protein shake for lunch and a healthy dinner some days.) I snack on special k bars. their not bad at all.

After 30 days of making sure I got through my soda issue I am hopefully quiting smoking. I can only tackle one issue at a time. If I did it all at once it would probably killed me. SO I know I can over come one big addiction I can do another. NO get me wrong I never through out the pepsi or diet coke in my home it is all there still. I just dont have a desire to drink it anymore and feel like if I threw it out I would have wanted it more. So it's still there for anyone who comes to visit.

Sunset on the Mountain

Well nothing much is happening here. I have spending a lot of time up on the mountain with Mick. It is honestly just so surreal that I have him in my life. Last night I was there and the sun was going down and so I wondered out to take photo's and this happens to be the one I like most. It is hard to get a good sunset photo because there is trees everywhere. The funny thing about this photo is this morning Mick texted me to say it was snowing up there. I wish I was there to get a photo maybe if it happens again I will.

As you know my son Jeffery is turning 18 this Monday and if that is not scary I think he is very scared. He will finally be an adult. For his Birthday he has asked for money to go to Idaho Falls for the weekend. Hell be going yes but that is all I can say in case he reads my blogs. I will just keep you all updated. I can say I am honestly proud of Jeffery and all he has done in these 18 years. He is devoted to the church and does well in school. So if your reading Jeffery I love You as a mom and when you say I just don't care because I just don't go buy you whatever it is like a truck because I Love you so much.

Spent The Weekend On Little House

OK so I took a chance and went to spend a weekend with some friends at my friend Micks cabin. Now to explain it fully my friend is a guy who lives up on this mountain all winter long and comes down by snowmobile every 2 weeks to a snow park to meet up with a bunch of us to roast hot dogs and marshmallows by camp fire. Mick has chased me for 2 years and never did I give him a second look or a chance until I was invited to the campfire day a couple of months ago. That was the day I found this wonderful friend. He has a similar story as me his girlfriend of years died exactly 5 months before Richard and when I met him I just happen to walk into the tavern a month after Richards death and he walked up to me and said I have just got to meet you because a angel just walked through the door. I thought he was drunk and needed his eyes checked out. So from that point on I never really gave him the time of day and for 2 years he has told me how much he is in love with me and told anyone who would listen. So after that campfire day he actually turns out to be this great guy.

So he spends all winter up at this cabin. No-one can get there unless they are on snowmobile and he enjoys his quiet time there. So now most of the snow is gone and you can actually drive there by car he invited a bunch of us up for a weekend there. I had never been there but everyone talked about how great it was. Well of course I was the first one there and I was actually surprised. I walked in and there was 3inches of dust on everything. I didn't mind because I do NOT dust anything in my home. It was very beautifully built which he did with his dad years ago. So as time wore on no one showed up and we had the camp fire going and ate hot dogs. I took pictures while there which everyone knows I love to take photos. I just didn't get the inside pictures done before my batteries went dead. At first I was so nervous I had to use the bathroom and thought well he said he had running water but didn't say where. So I asked where the bathroom was and he said at the outhouse outside. I wanted to die. He wasn't joking there was a outhouse with the moon shape on the door. So as night started to come on we figured out our other friends were not coming and he explained there is no POWER to the cabin. So he fires up the generator to get lights on. He explained to me he only runs it for 3 hours a day. I was thinking you got to be joking. Well after 5 hours of light we decided to go to bed. He has 2 of the oldest beds up on the loft. Yes there was 3 inches of dust on the bed I was going to use for I don't think anyone ever slept there ever. So before we could go up the stairs he has to shut the lights out to turn on the lantern. AT that point I could resist and say to him com on pa lets so to bed. He didn't find me funny. Oh but before we could do that he had to hook up the car battery to the TV upstairs so he could watch TV all night long. I was sweating bullets for the cabin was 210 degrees. So we get up stairs the TV is going full blast he is somehow changing the channels with the remote pointed downstairs and I a having a heat stroke. He then shuts the lantern off to light it again to say he needs to put more wood on the fire at that point I said no. So morning comes at 6am. I look outside and it has a inch of snow on the ground. I could have died thinking I may not make it out of here. I'M tired and I think Ill go home at 8a but then his brother arrives to talk about hunting this past 40 years. Every dear or elk they killed was mentioned. 5 hours later I was falling asleep.

So to really sum this all up there was no running water indoors and if I wanted to shower he could warm up water for 4 hours on the wood stove to pour in a box and then pumped out to a shower head. If I wanted a drink of water he had 2 water containers from a spring out back. If I wanted to eat I probably could have on the propane stove. Then if I need the bathroom it is out back at the outhouse. If there was an emergency and need to call someone you could by his cell that is hooked to a antenna. My goodness and this man lives like this all year round. He he has done well for himself. He isn't poor by all means he has money. He just chooses this life. He says this is the last winter there well see.

Overall it was the best weekend I've had for a long time. It was going back to the basics. He was so much fun to talk to and laughed 90% of the time. I wonder if our friends wanted us to have this time and if they did I am grateful. I will keep you updated. Oh I forgot I never left till 6pm to go home and still wanted to stay.

The pictures above is the small red cabin is one he rents out. The other one with the truck is his he lives in.

Reunite As a Family

Iam looking to have us 5 "wood Kids" to reunite with each other. I think we need to put all our past differences aside and come together before it's to late.







This is the cabin I have reserved for this summer for us to all come together as a family. Some of the wonderful things it has to offer is:

• Beds for 40 People


• Seating for dinner for 80 People


• In door Fire Place


• Warm Showers and Bathroom


• Swimming Hole


• Fishing Hole


• Another Cabin that sleeps 15 on site


• Hiking


• Private Drive into Cabin site


• Volley Ball Set Up


• Flag Pole


• Stadium Seating Fire Pit out doors


• Indoor gas stove


• Running Water


• You could set up a tent but I would not recommend it for the wildlife.



• It is also very beautiful so if you want to just get away from others there is plenty to see.
  


• You would need to bring your bedding but I have lots of sleeping bags and blankets if you don't have them.
  

I will be paying for the cabin and would only ask for every family to pay for groceries.

The weekends I have this reserved is
June 27-28
July 24-26
Aug 21-23
We can all pick a weekend that you all can do I will be renting it no matter what.

Kids Come & Gone/Diabetes

It's been a busy 2 weeks. Dylan Pots came to visit during his spring break. Gosh he is getting so much taller then I really thought he would. We had lots of fun with him here. If you don't know Dylan has been diagnosed as a Diabetic. How it all happen is last summer we were all playing with my machine for I test every once in a while and we decided to test him. His BGN was in the 300's. I panicked and took him to the DR and had test ran. Then on his Birthday he tested at 440 no cake for you. The DR at the ER said to me I will not diagnose this as diabetes for he may want to get into the army someday. So when he went home to dads after a long summer his dad got him into a specialist and yes he is at the very earliest stage of Diabetes this DR had ever seen. One day he will be on insulin but for now it is strictly controlled by diet. So while he was here I worried he may eat a bunch of junk I have in my house for he always had. I spent more time worrying that they will spike again. We did good he only had it one time where it was 240 or so and he was so good about getting up and going for a bike ride to get his numbers down. Then it was my birthday which someone brought me a big 2 layer chocolate cake and he bugged me to no end for a piece of cake. He kept asking me if I wanted a piece and I would say no for I don't like cake at all. So I finally told him he could have a piece. The next day I was so worried I would come home from work and he had ate the whole thing when in fact he ate none of it. WOW Dylan does watch his diabetes. All in all it was a great visit with Dylan. But before he left Samantha came to visit and it is always fun when Sam comes. She ended up getting to take Dylan home and see her baby. All I can say with your kids test them yearly for diabetes. More on that later........

Well Congrats Judy & Ryan with the baby. I have the first picture that was sent out by phone and show everyone how fat and cute she is.

A Week Alone....

OK so I bet you all think that just because I have the house to myself that it is relaxing. NOPE! I find that I talk to myself more. I have put a 500 piece puzzle together in 2 days. So I decided to start on 1000 piece puzzle hoping it would take me to the end of the week. I have also been pretty sick and never thought someone could sneeze 1 million times. Well I have in the past 3 days. I have also ate 14 meals each day for I keep walking into the kitchen to go out the back door to smoke. It's crazy here! But hey at the weeks ending it will be my BIRTHDAY and My 2 boys will be home with me.

New Things To Write Home About

Well I am so glad the warm weather is on the way. I can tell it is getting warmer my allergies are coming back in full force. If I am not allergic to enough foods I am allergic to most flowers. I have found that carnations are something I can have on my desk in my office.

Spring also brings spring break for the kids. Jeff left on a week long journey to Janet's. He will then pick Dylan up and bring him home. It is so funny because Dylan said the other day I hope he doesn't drive slow. I said Dylan he better not go over 25mph all the way here, he is bringing my precious baby boy home to his mom and don't want him hurt. He said then I am not going because that will take up half of my week vacation. Oh I forgot with Jeff gone with my Car I get to drive the pimp mobile. More on that to come with pictures.

I am learning to sing, every time one of my staff has a Birthday Party they invite me out to sing Karaoke with them. Mind you I have never sang they would have kicked me out of the place. Well the staff got a great surprise the other day I bought 2 karaoke machines for my work houses. They got it all set up and I turned it on and belt out a tune like no other. I don't think I sounded so good for the staff were shutting the windows so the neighbors would not call the police. I didn't just do one song but 8 songs. It was so much fun. I didn't have a voice after all that but I had fun. Then again today i just could not resist singing a couple of songs again. I am guessing they won't be asking me to come sing with them again.

As for my love life I am starting to see someone new. He is a great guy who has chased me for 2 years. He is quiet. He stays year round up at his cabin out of town. Right now you have to take a snow mobile to get there. Why after 2 years of him chasing me, well I got the chance to see him and out side the bar and he is actually a great guy with a lot of personality. The interesting thing is he came down for the day last weekend and ended up staying in town. I told him he could come over and crash on my couch. Yes my couch. So we walked through the door and there is Jeff who has NEVER experienced me bringing anyone home from the bar. To say the least he was not happy with me. Well the next morning I got up and there was Jeff cleaning his paintball guns. It was like he was sending a warning to him. Like a father would to his daughters boyfriend. TOO FUNNY! Well I will keep you updated on Mick and I. I am not saying it will work I just know I am taking things slooooooooow!

Well nothing else is happening here. Going to enjoy a quiet week alone. Unsure what I am going to do with myself but I will keep busy for sure!

Nothing to write home about

Everything is going great here in good ol LaGrande. Spring is just around the cornor I think. I am doing well. Nothing to write home about I guess. Jeff is getting ready to go to Janets for spreak break from school. Then he will be bringing Dylan home for his visit here. I can't wait to see him. Well I enjoy reading everyones blogs keep them comming.

Visit To Tricia's, Been Sick

Hello Everyone:

Well I made a trip to Beautiful Riggins, Id. That is a great place to visit if it is warm. Too bad I was sick at the time so I didn't get to enjoy the whole thing. Well the funny thing is if you go to visit Tricia you best know where she lives or you can always visit Sheriff Woody and he will let you know. I got into town at about 10pm and my cell phone didn't work there so I had to visit the sheriffs office to find out. Dang he is a cutie no wonder Tricia chased him. Well Tricia got moved and she didn't kill anyone in the processes. Imagine that! LOL

Well for being sick I have been down with pneumonia and then bronchial issues and now I have lost my voice. I am now going on 3 weeks with this and starting to feel better. I never get sick, But what ever it is it has gone through all the staff and then all 8 clients. They were all sick. It's been a long road for all of us. It is the biggest illness I have seen hit so many at once.

Well I hope everyone else has been well! Keep in touch!

Jeff didn't STARVE at Samantha's

Jeff got home tonight, thank goodness for his car I could have not done one more day. Well he gets home and tells me how much fun he had visiting his sister and I am all excited to hear what they did until he told me he didn't go hungry. I said well I am glad you didn't what did you eat and he said we ate at a bunch of homeless shelters. I said WHAT? He said ya it's like cafeteria style. He then said I got a free box of bread there. I said what for that is for the people who are homeless and you are not homeless. He said Mom when you saw all the food they threw away in the garbage I would not say they needed it. I said yes they do. He then told me about seeing all the people sleeping on the ground outside. I think it was a eye opener for him and made him realize what he has.

Pimp My Ride

Ok so Jeff is out of town and left me his car to drive to work and around town. There is nothing like it, it is like driving a Mexicans car with out the frilly bells around the edges and dice in the rear view mirror. It is so embarrassing to drive I want to put on a disguise to go out. It all started out when I went out to drive it to work this morning and my hair gets caught on something above my head I look up and it's one of the 100's of staples he used to staple the cloth to the ceiling. I drive up to work and every ones is looking to see who is parking in the bosses spot and then they see me. It is not funny. Then I get a call from my dear son asking if I would like to trade my car with one Sam has which could not be worse then the pimp mobile then what I have. You can only imagine my answer.

Yes Janet this car is worse then the blue bomb you gave me. So you know I thought about having the little balls wrapped around the edges for him and I would hang up dice but hey there is no rear view mirror! He better come home SOON!

Ears Piericed/Valentines Day/Being Sick

OK so I am turning 39 this year and I go and get my ear pierced with a client. I told her I would go get it done. What was I thinking. my ears HURT! I don't sleep well for I am not use to wearing anything at night 9 in my ear). They get caught on things and tugs. I am too old for this ear thing. When I went to get it done I had to show my ID so she knew I was 18 she said, give me a break I said. Then she said I need to sign a paper so I would not sue her. What for? Now I know my ears hurt and I don't think I could last the 6 weeks it takes with them in to take them out at night. I think they should put a age limit on how old is too old to get your ears done.

SO I loved your thing about Valentines Date Janet. I decided it was a day for us single people to remember were still single. I actually had a relaxing Valentines day I was sick so I stayed in and rested. Only for my illness to turn into pneumonia. So today I stayed home from work which I NEVER do . I guess that is what sick time is for something I never use for I never get sick enough to stay home. I am getting better and as the day wears on I wonder why I stayed home. Oh yeah I"m SICK.

As for everything else Jeff set out to go see Samantha today in Spokane. He called and said he made it there. Oh my goodness! My baby son is growing up!

Proud Parents

New Grand Baby & Big Sister

I have a new Grand Baby! Micheal Rudolfe Yeifag was born Feb 13, 2008 8lbs 3oz. This is his big sister that is spoiled rotten and wants really nothing to do with him, especially if mom is holding him. Effie the big sister was my first Grand Kid at work. She was ready leave with me when I had to go today. She never leaves her moms side. It was so funny because the parents were so afraid she would hurt him so I put him with her and said if you protect him all the time from her she will not get to know who he is.

The parents are from the Islands and have just them selves here so I play mom to them. Keep watching I have more grand babies coming soon!

Work & Son Dating

Well it has been another week down and a new one started.

It's funny to find out your sons secrets by reading his blog site to find out he has a girlfriend but not just any girl a girl from a very good Mormon family. Her brothers use to work for my company and I can say they are true role models for all.

Work is going good, keeping busy with everything. I have a client that is blind and she is so funny. She always tells me she is blind because she is, but when I say your not blind you can see through your fingers because you have special powers we don't she smiles big and says I do don't I. She is a very special client because I know her through Richard. Her step Mom is Richards sister. That only sad thing is she will die soon and she is only 18. She has a disease that kills them at a young age and she has really outlived her years she was suppose to live. I feel so blessed to make sure we full fill her last days with all the happiness we can give her. Recently we died her hair purple because she wanted to. Next she will get her ear pierced and I told her I would get mine done because I do not have pierced ears. She is so exited to have it done now. I will keep you updated on her as time passes.

I am also looking into getting my license to take in crisis clients at my home. If I had it today they would place 2 of them here that were clients of mine that keep asking to come back to my program. They came to my program because they had no place for them and were on their way to another lock down faculty when after 6 months with me they became a real success and have not been in crises sense. They went on to assisted living homes and both are doing well. It is just they have kept in touch with me and would love to come back where they know their loved and secure. It will be 6months down the line. But I will keep you informed.

I'm going underground! Steelers WON!

I surviuved the game, it is not good when you have to almost sneak out the door because your team wins. It was a awsome game and get this everyone ate the peanut butter dessert. Oh my I may have to go underground for a while. No it is so interesting when you are the only one making noise and then that last touch down I was told by 4 people to leave. Oh but hey I was the DD driver for 2 of them so I got to stay. Thanks Tricia for being a support even tho it was by phone.

Super Bowl Sunday and I live on the west Coast

So it's game day and if you live even close to the where the Seattle Sea Hawks live you should always go for the West Coast team, so that's what they say here. Not me I always have to be different. I think you should go for the team you believe in not because you live on the west coast. So I am off to a Super Bowl Party where everyone is for the Cardinals and I am sticking to my guns with the Steelers, not because of Ryan & Judy are the BIGGEST fans because there a good team and played a good game. Oh I guess I can say because of you Ryan and Judy and they have to have a fan here. We have to have some hope from the west to the east even if I am the only one here rooting for them. I will be bring in my horns and noise makers for when the Steelers get a touch down because I am the only one going to be making noise so I better be as loud as the others. So here is one for you Ryan & Judy, at least when you move here to the west you will have me as a fan and you won't feel so alone.

Donations Needed

My Friend Joe recently had to have 7 teeth pulled and now has no front teeth on top. He is in need of a Denture being made and it will cost $200.00. He can't afford it because he is very low income and is layed off from work right now. NO ONE should have to walk around with only half of there teeth On top. He literly has one eye tooth and the rest are gone on the top. It is sad! I am willing to pay the first $100.00 but I need some help raising the rest of the money.

Giving Blood

Today I gave blood like I do every 3 Months. Did you know by giving blood you save upto 3 lives? Your blood is also used with in 42 days. It always makes me feel so good when I get to give blood it is also fun and exciting to get to meet others. If you ever see a place having a blood drive you don't need an appointment you can walk in a they will never turn you down. You are not paid for this it is you giving back.

Saturday

Another week down. Pretty uneventful. Snowed again last night. I think it is time for the snow to go away and spring come.

Oh I did have a very scary experience this week! I went out after work with Shane and in the bars in Oregon you can not smoke so I left my drink and went out doors and came back and picked up my drink and started drinking again. I instantly became very ill and had a hard time focusing and walking. I said to Shane I need to go home for I do not know what is wrong with me all of a sudden and all I felt like doing is pucking. When I got home into bed I tried everything in my power to throw up but my esophagus and stomach was paralyzed and had no way of swallowing. I laid there for 4-5 hours trying to throw up and then I was able to do it. The next day after talking to people about what had happen I had come to realize someone had drugged my drink with what they called a date rape drug which does paralyze you. It has taken a couple of days of not being sick to my stomach but now I know better not to ever leave anything unattended. I know maybe I should be in bars or smoke but that is me and I don't judge.

All you that think that kids are expensive let me tell you! Jeff needed insurance for his car so I thought I would put him on mine with the deal I will pay for half of it. 324.00 a month for him. I about fell off my chair. All I could say to him is I hope Mc Donalds looks like a place you can work at for you will need to get a job. What in the world am I paying for. I just know i will not be taking any vacation anytime soon. That is expensive! I am going to go shopping around for better insurance but for now I have to make sure he is covered in my car.

I hope all is well with your families!

One more thing you know you work to much when you look at your calander at work and think it is your Mom's Birthday so you call and sing her the song we a hate sung to us. When I thought it was her Birthday I could not decide if it was the 27th or 28th so I thought I would play it safe and call the 27th, which today is not the 27th it is the 20th. I am OVER WORKED!

Everything is going well here. I work a lot of the time and when I have time to play I play. Ya right! My husband and I are working on things, I won't let him move back in but we spend a lot of time with eachother. The big problem is his 6 year old son. I don't do little ones anymore. Don't get me wrong I love to have the grandkids visit but then they have to leave after a while. Kinda like mom.

As for Jeff he is grown so much and I am SO PROUD of him. For all of you who felt sorry for him over the holidays don't he is very spoiled by me here and gets most everything. Nobody said it cost more when there 17 then 16. He recently got his full license so he loves to just drive around for no reason. Like going 20 miles out of town to buy a 25 cent ice cream. I asked him what does a gallon of gas cost afterwards. I think he now knows what I mean.

Well I hope to keep this up and take more photo's I have tons on my computer but maybe I will one up Tricia and take photo's of what I have to offer so you will all visit sometime.

It has bathrooms with warm showers. Lots of camp grounds around the area with picnic tables.

This cabin I stayed at over the summer I think we should have a big

family get togeather. It has 40 beds inside. Big kitchen, indoor fireplace, out door stadium seating fire pit. It is beutiful. There is swiming, fishing, extra private cabins on the lot all for $50.00 a night. It is secluded and private.

My grandkids don't we look alike? There all babies born from my staff at work. I have 2 more on the way from staff.